Counting the little things

Still not feeling all better but things are slowly starting to improve and have more Dr appointments lined up to get me healthier again! I’m still pretty worried I’m not going to get my class done in time but just have to keep telling myself and be reminded by my loved ones that health needs to come first. Taking naps instead of stubbornly trying to plow through has helped because when I am up the quality is a bit better. I know I am not lazy, and I know I am not giving up and will be back at the joy of making art and struggling through all the crappy jobs of being a business owner lol (finances, licenses, paperwork etc.)! Instead of oh I didn’t get this this this this and this and on and on … lol because it never ends so now, I’m saying wow I am so glad I got a chapter of class in today or I’m so thankful I was well enough to do a load of laundry and celebrating that to shift my mindset.

It also really helps to have loving people in your life. My boyfriend’s mom has come over a few times while I have been so sick and cleaned my house for me!!!!!!! And she has been saying things I personally need to hear like that she is doing it because she loves me and wants to help and she’s not judging but being understanding that I have been in a lot of pain. It turns out I really needed to hear those things to be able to receive help. She came over a couple days ago and worked for like 5 hours!!!!! It improved my mind from being less depressed and feeling less disgusting and then today instead of feeling incredibly overwhelmed I was able to get up and do a couple things before needing to rest again! Thank you Kim <3

-CKC