I did a few things :)

I am a bit of a wreck. I had a little break down last evening. These things happen and it’s okay.

I can recover! This will pass! I will feel better again!

It’s hard not to beat up on myself. for what? for hurting? for being in pain? for having the inability to say no? for being empathetic? for having feelings? for making mistakes? for being human? for existing? I am going to end this; it is a battle and a struggle, but I am determined to win. I will count each little victory! today I spoke my truth and today I was able to get a few time-sensitive business things done that have been weighing on me…entering payment info in to keep my website up and running and for QuickBooks too. They are so crazy expensive. I have a hard time with using it, but I was literally getting nowhere without it, so I need to keep it. Paying bills literally makes me sick with dread just thinking about them and trying to do the books. I shudder. lol I think I did pretty good today considering how I am feeling. And it is only 11 am so who knows if I lay down now, I might even feel better later to do something, but I better take the time to listen to my body because yesterday I didn’t and I messed up a lot of things because of it and then was mad at myself. Today I am doing it differently and we will see how that goes!

-CKC